why should it be so bad to be bad when it's so hard to be anything at all

Maybe you all would consider it a joke
If I say that I hate myself
But now and then
When I look into the mirror
All I see is a big mistake
(And wouldn't you)
Well, I just wanna be fun
Just wanna be the one
Who makes you smile
I just wanna believe
That I could be something to someone
Am I the only one around here,
Who's not gonna live my life in fear?